pt. 1

sometimes i wonder why i neglect certain friendships,

or why i let that one person take over my thoughts & actions.

and then i wonder why i don't get better grades,

or care more about how my life is turning out.

i wonder why i get really anxious over really stupid situations.

i wonder why i don't just wake up one day and drive to Disneyland.

i wonder why i don't have a better relationship with my mom,

or why i can't keep my room clean.

why i have no motivation,

and can't keep on the same nail polish for more than 24 hours.

sometimes i wonder why i absolutely cannot do math,

and why i always make things seem more complicated then they really are.

i wonder why i'm not better at managing time & tasks.

or why i have the hardest time seeing the good in people.